The Kingdom Glow

     The enemy will try to do anything to prove to God that you are not ready for your miracle. These are signs that God has answered your prayers. He’s testing your faith to see if you are worthy of your double portion. You are in your Job season. Hold on to your character and always remember who you represent; the Kingdom.

     A few minutes before this ordeal I am about to dive into, I came across a YouTube community post by Transformation Church that said, “Testing your faith is a privilege, not punishment.” I thought that was so good. It’s true. He believes you’re strong enough to handle it. Now, for readers knowledge, this is my “second chance” test. I failed the first but God is so good, kind, and loving. The first chance test was really on praying for my enemies. I will be completely H.O.T. (Humble, Open, Transparent) because it might save someone. I still struggle with praying for my enemies. I hope and pray for the death of many of them. Not all, but especially those who are knowingly stopping OR HOLDING my blessings from coming to fruition. That “holding” is a real one but for the person’s sake, I can’t say what those blessings are. I am still healing. No one is perfect but Christ Jesus. God forewarned me I would get a second chance and I thought the same subject, however, it’s not.

     I was sitting at the desk at work and out of nowhere I focused on the number 212. I felt led to look it up in the Bible Strong’s Concordance and Greek it means self-confidence, boasting pride. I thought okay that’s strange. I kept it in mind and opened YouTube right after, there was a video I clicked on posted by a fellow prophet a few days ago. The video wasn’t resonating but I watched it anyway. On the video, I happened to see a picture and in the picture, it said:
“The pride of your heart has deceived you. Though you ascend as high… From there I will bring you down,” says the Lord.
I immediately put my head down and felt horrible! I apologized to Papa(I call the Father, Papa) and asked what it was that I was proud of. I repent but in my spirit, something felt off. It didn’t feel right or like Him. I went through everything I said and did, even in prayer. I went through conversations with people, and my thoughts to myself. There wasn’t once I boasted in pride. One thing I know about God is when He is upset with you, you will know what it is for. I didn’t know why or where it came from and it made me feel so uneasy. Also, the way it was delivered to me felt very harsh. In a rebuking tone. Papa gave me His word that He would “never rebuke me again.” in Isaiah 54. I was in such shock for a second, that I assumed maybe I didn’t know the definition of rebuke. The harsh disapproval was different for me. He has always corrected me but in loving ways. This was different. Though I was scared, I shook it off and I told Papa that there was no way this was Him because I know Him and this had to be the enemy playing tricks on me. I know if I have been proud, He will remind me of the exact moment that my pride took over. I was scared because what if it was God? What if I had been prideful?

     I immediately closed out the video and deleted it from my history. I was pretty angry. Not at the prophet, she was being obedient for someone but because the enemy enticed me to watch something that wasn’t for me. After I returned to my home page, there was a warfare prayer video. I don’t normally watch those either; I watched its entirety. During the video, I felt a demonic spirit leaving my body. How? I get the shakes. I wondered when and how it got in there. I hadn’t given myself over to willful sin; I pray and stay in the presence of the Lord. I haven’t had a demonic spirit leave me since the beginning of my walk with God. Where did it come from?

     In my alone time with Him at 4 am, God gave me the secret. As a friend of God, He gives you secrets and tells you great and unsearchable things. He told me to not worry, that He allowed a spirit to enter me to test if I trusted His words and/or would look differently at Him or myself/beliefs after all the pruning and purging. Whether it was a pride spirit or of a different type, I am not sure, however, I received confirmation earlier that day that the enemy knows He can’t get our Father to view us differently, so he tries to get us to view the Father differently. And so it is, the enemy has failed. I have passed this test.

     Discernment is key to a joyful life! You must know you. You must know YOUR stance with God. You must know God. Shalom!

*Grammatical errors may occur