The Kingdom Glow

Deciding my favorite person to be around could get touchy among my close peers. I could argue all day about someone holding a particular spot higher than another. I could respond with a best friend, a sibling, a close relative, or a coworker. I could say a spouse or a love interest. However, my answer is none of these.

In the last year, the majority of my time has been spent reading the Bible and spending real devotional time with God, the Father. I’m washing myself in His word and the living waters daily. After my encounter with Him nearly a year ago, there is nothing I would do instead. I enjoy being in His presence. After experiencing His love, I couldn’t ever walk away from Him. He was there when I didn’t know Him and when I rejected Him.

Someone will come across this post and say it is a “silly” answer and call it a “cop-out,” but it isn’t. Why do I consider Him my favorite person to be around, you ask?

Well, a few years ago, I screamed and cried over a man that didn’t love me. There were many days and nights that I cried and wailed as I drove down the highway, asking God why, asking God to bless something sent to destroy me, asking God to bless something that killed my purpose. I was asking God to gift me something that couldn’t give me the bare minimum. I wanted to end my life because I felt as though no one loved me. I was undeserving of real love, so I would take what I could get. I couldn’t understand then, but I now know He saved me. He loved me so much He couldn’t let it happen. He was my comforter when no one else knew what to say. He was my counselor when I battled with suicide and depression throughout my childhood. My parents never knew what to say. Friends couldn’t help, and only one voice was with me from the beginning that I was drawn to.

Now, I’m praising and worshipping the One that saved me from those awful relationships. The One that loved me from the very beginning. The One that sacrificed and knew me before entering into my mother. So I tell people, when you see me screaming and crying in joy-filled worship rather than pain, you must understand what God took me out of.

Now that I am doing better for myself, He has removed people from my life that were poison to my future. They wouldn’t have helped me continue forward but merely brought me back to my old pain. They weren’t as happy for me when I healed because they enjoyed what I did with them more than enjoying me. God has purged things that I thought to be my personality but was only caused by trauma. He is the greatest friend, counselor, father, brother, and husband anyone could have.

To answer the question, my favorite people to be around are God, Jesus, and His Holy Spirit. Thank You for giving me abundant life and considering me as a friend. As your daughter and sister, everything that I do, I do for You out of love. Your presence is the highest gift of all.

One who loves a pure heart and who speaks with grace will have the king for a friend.

Proverbs 22:11 NIV

*Grammatical errors may occur